The Fragility Of The Human Spirit

There is a fragility to the human psyche. There is always a limit…a breaking point…which we all have where we surrender and collapse under the weight of the things burdening us. It can be instantaneous or it can take many years to press down so hard we finally let the tears flow. It’s that singular moment when we stop being stoic…fighting the good fight…and stop bottling up everything inside us…and just let go.

To cry…until you are spent of tears and emotions. To scream the emotions at the world without restraint. To let wave after wave of sorrow, anger, resentment, and pain flow out of you. To allow yourself to be set awash in those things you have kept at bay for so long.

It can be very cathartic for the soul, but it can also leave one in a state of utter shock, anxiety ridden and unable to get back up. So you sit in a perpetual state of numb, for what seems like an endless time, lost in thought and morose emotions. And you feel alone in this great big world.

It doesn’t matter who you are, where you are, what job you have, or any other number of issues that tend to separate us from one another. In that one moment in time, you are none of those things. You are simply human, having a human experience.

Is this a prediction of change coming into your life? Who knows….for some that might be true, while for others it is merely an expression of emotions that can no longer be avoided in a situation that lays beyond change of the moment.

Perhaps what I’m saying takes you back to such a moment in your life? A moment where you sat alone and felt as though you bore the weight of the world on your shoulders. Where you wondered if there was any hope at all, because in that moment, you certainly couldn’t see any. Where you stared blankly out at a wall or empty space, lost in contemplation, while tears fell from your eyes seemingly without end.

Perhaps it does. Perhaps it doesn’t. The point here is to remember and to feel, so you understand what I’m going to say next, because it’s important. And you can’t have one without the other, most of the time, sadly. So bear with me, please.

Now, I want you to remember the next catalytic moment of your life after that, something equally profound. It could be moments, hours, days or even years later. But, if you look for it, you will find it. It’s a moment when the pain eased just enough for you to breath again, or someone touched you and comforted you, or when you realized you had walked through all of that darkness and….survived it. That is the moment when hope rematerialized in your focus.

It doesn’t have to be miraculous or life changing, to be a light shining on you in the darkness. It can be a quiet moment full of subtly and contemplation. It can be something noted in passing. It can also be something you don’t notice at all. But it’s there, none the less.

There is a fragility to the human psyche…yours, mine…a limit, if you will. But that threshold isn’t the end, by far, no matter how it seems in a moment’s time.

The human spirit, the human heart, and the human mind do heal over time. Yeah, there is alot of baggage associated with healing. And depending on how shattered you are, it can seem like an endless road to recovery.

But for this, its the smallest things that matter. Taking one day at a time. Enjoying the smaller pleasures in life, as much as the large. Appreciating what you do have, without comparing it to what you feel as though you lack. And remembering, in these small ways, that there is hope. There is healing. And there is ample time for both.

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~ by Misuchi Sakurai on July 2, 2010.

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